Still waiting to be moved...

I just got home - it's 11:30. Dad had a rough day and may have to be intibated again. He should be going up to the Spinal Injury Ward tomorrow. He is very scared, tired, lonely. He was asking alot about his friends today.

I will be at work until 2 tomorrow as I have to go into the hospital early to see the Clinical Nurse and Social Worker before 4. Just leave me a message on my cell and I can check it at the hospital if you want. I am getting physically and emotionally exhausted as I have no one to talk to and it's taking it's toll. It's just that he knows he can't move and it's so hard to see him like that, it's hard too when I hold his hand and he can't feel it, it's really heartbreaking. He remembers falling and not being able to move for a long time and he kept calling out for help. I won't tell him how long he was on the floor, but he did ask what happened today so I told him. Didn't use the word paralyzed or anthing, jsut told him it's going to take a lot of work. When I talked to the shift nurse I was telling her about the spasms and she said you never know, cuz he said yesterday he could feel his back and today his bum was hurting from lying down for so long. He is not suppose to be feeling anything. When i got there he was asleep and I rubbed his leg so I wouldn't wake hime and then he woke up and told him what was I doing with his leg. She also told me that it's an incomplete injury so he maybe able to feel something. The surgeon told me complete but now who knows. Dad just wants his arms back. I told him that no one could possibley know how he feels and he is really scared, but we are all here to help him.